Christ in me
Holy spirit
lifting my soul
Jesus guiding me
spirit made whole
my heart is free
patience more tender
hands so generous
I willingly surrender
Knowing Jesus, holds the blessing of receiving unconditional LOVE that not only heals you, but can be spread, heal others, too.
Kindness heals. I remember noticing how ‘do good and good will come to you’ is real. I firmly believed that love can heal the world. It goes further than emotional tenderness, it actually builds life. Love can be a healing power that works miracles seen beyond the eye of the ‘healer’, which makes its actions so pure. I’ts believing in a healing power beyond what is seen. But it is real. That power is God almighty. My spirit knew this. Except it was not my spirit that figured it out. Since I choose to search for light, God’s Holy Spirit has guided me to His truth. ONLY because of how GOOD and FAITHFUL God is. HALLELUJAH.
Even before I knew it was Jesus who saved me, I knew that I did not hold the power to save. That’s why the painting looked unfinished to me. I detested the middle part. My spirit saw it’s emptiness, but my soul did not know what was missing. What was the source of healing??
My journey of ‘finding light’ was not complete yet. Not until I actually met Jesus.
Being overwhelmed by His presence in my heart, I became aware of how real He is. Feeling love like never before left no place for doubt. It was His Love that saved me, love that can safe the world. The power I saw, now made sense. My story finally made sense. It was Gods will to bring me home and He choose to be creative about it. He knew how to reach me without having to doubt it.
“What do you think? If a man owns a hundred sheep, and one of them wanders away, will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hills and go to look for the one that wandered off? And if he finds it, truly I tell you, he is happier about that one sheep than about the ninety-nine that did not wander off. In the same way your Father in heaven is not willing that any of these little ones should perish. Matthew 18:12-14
And the selfless Love I give, is only possible because I receive it in greater ways than you can imagine. My kindness is simply a sample of what Jesus has for you.
John 14:6 “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the father except through me.” And when I realized that, I could not go back. I got baptized and let Jesus work on me further.
When He comes into your heart, the deepest places of your heart get changed. Compassion, and forgiveness enters your heart like never before. And more than anything: love. When you feel the LOVE that Jesus has for you, you know you will never find it anywhere else. You will willingly surrender.
And the depth of Love I can give, is only possible because I receive it. Nobody can love, heal and guide like Him. So it is my pleasure to spread that Love where I can. Jesus can save anyone, and will save everyone. It is just ours to admit we accept it.
It is a free source of unconditional love, guidance and providence, from the one Who made you. Questions are not yours to worry about. He will reveal all His truth to you. All you have to say is ‘I want you’. ‘I need you’. Spoiler; we all do.
I have always loved giving more than receiving. I have always loved seeing my friends smile. I have treated people with respect and been open to conversation. But when you get mistreated, those traits seem dangerous to posses. Empathy gets a bitter taste, so you set up boundaries. Jesus has taken that fear away and shown me that love won’t be wasted in God’s eyes.
Jesus his love is selfless. It’s faith. Kindness is healing, kindness spreads. That is not a materialistic concept, or a quick reward system. It’s only accomplished through giving. To grant divine energy (trust, compassion, patience and peace) without receiving a reward instantly, is the right approach. It is Jesus his way. It’s trust. By giving it, you are receiving it.
“It's more blessed to give than receive” (Acts 20:35).
“The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control” (Galatians 5:22-23, NLT)
God sees our intention, and he will reward it.
It is right to be worshipped. I believe it is applicable to more than caring for fellow humans. Earth is not just a walking playground. We are not just habituating it, we are to take care of it. VERSE
In order to help Earth heal, we should give the right love back. The love God put into it when he created the Earth.
That comes with treating life with trust, compassion, patience and peace. Traits that are so easy to put to use, when you have received the holy spirit. More than you could have imagined, more than you already did. Even if you had compassionate heart before, it is now you’re whole being.
It is life-size, which makes it appear like a mirror to emphasize on the idea of 'this could be you, this IS you.’
What People Are Saying
Then Peter said to them, “Repent, and let every one of you be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins; and you shall receive the gift of the Holy Spirit.” Acts 2:38
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And now why are you waiting? Arise and be baptized, and wash away your sins, calling on the name of the Lord. Acts 22:16
Jesus answered, “Most assuredly, I say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God.”John 3:5
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17 But he who is joined to the Lord is one spirit with Him.
18 Flee sexual immorality. Every sin that a man does is outside the body, but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body.
19 Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own?
20 For you were bought at a price; therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God's.
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TESTIMONY
Before I knew truth, I was searching for it.
I missed love in the world, genuine friendships and relationships that were build on respect and giving.
Unfortunately, I did not have a lot of places where I felt actually seen, supported or accepted for who I am.
This led me to wear masks, hide my true self, feel lonely, neglect my actual talents, accept mistreatment.
But it did make me sad and angry, I developed hatred for people, especially men who disrespecting me.
I forgot who I actually was, because she was constantly criticized. Told to be anyone but her authentic self.
I was taught not to dance freely ‘as a child’. I should only dance in an attractive way. (To the male gaze).
I was told that I was not allowed to play games or have fun, I should be in the kitchen cleaning. (I was 16).
I was obligated to wear the tightest clothing outside otherwise I wouldn’t be beautiful. (Which I hated).
I was forbidden to show any skin or talk to any person, or I would get accused of cheating. (I never did).
I was constantly being told I was not good enough, either less than required or too much. (I got worn out).
This behavior is what caused my soul to stop shining, my heart to be hurt and my mind to be broken.
I started people pleasing, begging to be loved, neglecting my own needs and rights, my honest desires.
THAT BROKENNESS and SEXUAL SIN is what opened the door for the devil to slip in with a lie; ‘You like girls’.
It made sense; they were much nicer, sweet, kind, and everything that I could not be: feminine & pretty.
I was attracted to what I was missing in my life, except that wasn’t from a place of who I actually am.
They were the missing pieces that the world, mainly (the enemy through) people had stolen from my me.
So before I could handle being a wife, to a man, I would have to be whole as a woman. Which I ‘could not’.
I hated the idea of being a women to a point I even disliked my breasts. My body got constantly analysed.
I suffered from an eating disorder, felt extremely uncomfortable around men while I just wanted to live life.
I was convinced; ‘Life must be easier for men’, this gave the enemy room; ‘You are a man’ … ‘you are both’.
Now that I know who I am, in this freedom, I can not imagine any confusion. But then, it ruined my peace.
Basically, I just longed to be comfortable in my own body. Knowing who I am and being allowed to be her.
